It’s really hard to figure out how to sell one’s self. I’d really like to guest on more podcasts. I want to put myself out there, reach more people. But I don’t know how to quantify my meaningfulness into bullet pointeable tools, tips, and points of value. It’s a little painful to be told- sorry- you will not add enough value to my audience.

I want to talk about confidence, about the struggle of continuing to follow a dream, how my confidence has grown and sagged and grown again as people believed in me, encouraged me, saw what I couldn’t see.

I want to talk about how people can connect with their audiences in a fun and authentic and engrossing way by encouraging them to make content that reflects their personality.

I want to share about how I’d love to help them figure out their youtube style, how I’d love to edit for them, pull our their personality, make them shine, and edit videos that their community will want to watch till the end.

It’s a pain to learn the language in which you sell yourself. But I know I have to be able to express what I offer in a cleaner and smoother way because for many, a chat isn’t enough. They need the bullet points. There’s another part of me that wants desperately to rebel against looking good. Looking put together. Looking professional. I want to be messy, comfortable and free. I want to break the labels that say that a woman has to earn her passage aboard this life by being beautiful, young and wrinkle free. I revel in the wisdom of my grey hairs and in the comfort of soft clothes.

It’s funny to think about how to make the things necessary to stamina sound fancy and official. You do it until you’re sick of it and then you do it some more. Vulnerability is separating yourself from the voice that says not to bother, that accepts the tears and the struggle as necessary and a tool for connection and community.

I want to guest on podcasts so I can have wonderful, heartfelt conversations and make new friends, And so that my youtube channel/podcast show can grow. I hope that people can be curious enough about me that they might care to see my life and connect with how I share it. I know my people are out there, and I don’t know where to find them. It’s frustrating and disheartening, so often.

This is stamina, carrying on, believing that I am enough and success is out there for me, too.